Wow. It took me a long time to read this fic because the title really made me recoil. Because you were a new author, I was really afraid that my heart was going to be crushed or that the issue or K/L wouldn't be handled with grace or compassion. I was wrong on all counts.
I think this fic is amazing. I was on the verge of tears nearly the entire time. It's raw and beautiful and I one of the best portrayals of their dynamic I've read in a very long time. I think you've captured Lee's obsessiveness perfectly, but also his intense vulnerability when it comes to Kara. Your portrayal of Kara makes me insanely jealous bc I can't capture her quite the way you do - everything about it, the language, the pacing, the words and feelings, all so wonderfully wrought that just reading it is painful.
My favorite thing, though, is Lee's reaction to her abortion. He is utterly and completely crushed - unable to even comprehend how or why she could HATE HIM! It is completely in character and so well shows how he has always interpreted her: "Why does she reject me? What am I doing wrong?" Lee has never quite understood her and is so sensitive to her words and actions that this portrayal feels brutally honest in its rendering. I ADORE ADORE ADORE his repeating of how much he hates her. In that moment, he absolutely must have. It's so in character for the situation and for a broken Lee that I could barely breathe. I felt so terrible for both of them.
The entire scene where he's raging at her was like watching a beautiful sculpture begin to tremble and shake and literally melt from the inside out and then explode. And Lee on Adama's lap. OMG. I'll never forget that scene. It's so tremendously powerful. Thank you for that.
Kara's hopelessness was so awful. You tapped into her deep shame so very well and my heart ached for her. In my head, I like to think that she'd never go to that level, but I know people can get their suddenly and inexplicably and just begin to feel like life is too hard and the struggle to great to continue. She felt like she failed Lee and Kacey and everyone. I wanted so much for her to love herself more, but I know she couldn't.
Her reasons for having the abortion made a lot of sense and I like that you carried that through the Epilogue (which I've also read, but see as a very separate fic and will comment seperately). It speaks a lot to the tragedy that is Roslin's decision to keep the abortion ban.
Okay, so I've gone on and on, so let me just say that I really enjoyed this fic. :P Kudos!
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Date: 2012-02-03 01:21 pm (UTC)I think this fic is amazing. I was on the verge of tears nearly the entire time. It's raw and beautiful and I one of the best portrayals of their dynamic I've read in a very long time. I think you've captured Lee's obsessiveness perfectly, but also his intense vulnerability when it comes to Kara. Your portrayal of Kara makes me insanely jealous bc I can't capture her quite the way you do - everything about it, the language, the pacing, the words and feelings, all so wonderfully wrought that just reading it is painful.
My favorite thing, though, is Lee's reaction to her abortion. He is utterly and completely crushed - unable to even comprehend how or why she could HATE HIM! It is completely in character and so well shows how he has always interpreted her: "Why does she reject me? What am I doing wrong?" Lee has never quite understood her and is so sensitive to her words and actions that this portrayal feels brutally honest in its rendering. I ADORE ADORE ADORE his repeating of how much he hates her. In that moment, he absolutely must have. It's so in character for the situation and for a broken Lee that I could barely breathe. I felt so terrible for both of them.
The entire scene where he's raging at her was like watching a beautiful sculpture begin to tremble and shake and literally melt from the inside out and then explode. And Lee on Adama's lap. OMG. I'll never forget that scene. It's so tremendously powerful. Thank you for that.
Kara's hopelessness was so awful. You tapped into her deep shame so very well and my heart ached for her. In my head, I like to think that she'd never go to that level, but I know people can get their suddenly and inexplicably and just begin to feel like life is too hard and the struggle to great to continue. She felt like she failed Lee and Kacey and everyone. I wanted so much for her to love herself more, but I know she couldn't.
Her reasons for having the abortion made a lot of sense and I like that you carried that through the Epilogue (which I've also read, but see as a very separate fic and will comment seperately). It speaks a lot to the tragedy that is Roslin's decision to keep the abortion ban.
Okay, so I've gone on and on, so let me just say that I really enjoyed this fic. :P Kudos!